Coming back from combat overseas was not the joyous return I had imagined for the tours I spent trying to survive.
I did survive but it’s been so incredibly hard to adjust to civilian life.
What I experienced simply changed me in a way that I can’t fully articulate. However, the medical marijuana benefits are helping me manage my PTSD. Before I started with medical cannabis, I simply was unable get much sleep or function in a normal way. When I say normal, I mean the way I once was able to behave. Like simply going to the grocery store or enjoying a slice of pizza. The joy I once had for those instances have been replaced with anxiety, outright terror and very little sleep. I did my best to live with this situation and fix it on my own. That simply wasn’t possible. Reaching out for help was the only way I was going to get better. It took me a while to find a group that fit my needs. An interesting aspect of the treatment is the use of medical marijuana. It’s something that intrigued me because I really didn’t like the way the meds I was given were making me feel. It just sort of shut me down. And I knew that I really had to work through the emotions if I was going to manage my condition. Medical marijuana products allow me to do just that. And being among peers in group as well as individual therapy allows me to work through my experiences. For me, that is the only way that I’m going to find a way back to who I am now.